Friday, October 21, 2011

Loneliness

This is a difficult post to write.  I don't enjoy expressing my weak points.

As you might already know, i have been living outside egypt for almost a year now.  I've visited egypt twice  since then - quick 3-day trips - just because i was feeling homesick.

Don't get me wrong, i'm very happy with the direction my career is taking.  I was totally against leaving Egypt and working abroad, but the opportunity that came up was just too good i guess.  Working in a multinational company as an architecture specialist is a dream job for many people my age, me included.  Lots of travelling is involved, the work itself is very diverse and it isn't boring at all, i get to meet many VIP's and coordinate with them in lots of projects, and ofcourse I can't complain about the money.  El7amdolellah.

It's the times when I'm not working that I hate the most.  Facebook and youtube can be good companions for an hour or so, but what next?  I'm not much of a TV guy and besides, all the shows these days are talking about politics and stuff... i hate that.  I managed to make some friends from work and we play soccer every wednesday.  The fact that they're all married makes it very difficult to socialize with them more frequently.

I miss sitting with my friends at the Ahwa at 2:00am playing cards or just chatting about random stuff with shisha in my hand and enjoying cairo's beautiful weather.

I miss being able to go to sa7el on the weekend to take a swim in our amazing beaches and come back refreshed to start a new exhausting work week.

I miss taking my sister to eat sushi in dandy mall like we used to do at least once a month.

I miss hanging out with Mahmoud & Ahmed, reminiscing about the stupid stuff we used to do when we were kids.

I miss taking my dogs out for a walk late at night.

I miss my chess-enthusiast friends who i would always find available to play some quality chess with.

I miss my old work friends who were more than family for 3 whole years.

I miss the joy of watching both of my nieces growing up and learning something new every day (they're 2 years old now).

I miss taking random walks on Imbaba bridge every once in a while and enjoying the best view of the nile available in cairo.

I miss going to alexandria in the winter.

I miss being next to my parents, knowing they're in good health.

The list goes on and on...




Loneliness is brutal.


3 comments:

gjoe said...

Well.. I don't really know what to say. Your posts are missed?
No, no no.. that might be an overstatement since even I stopped blogging. Umm.. maybe take care of yourself and this too shall pass? Naah.. too cheesy.
Maybe bring up the idea of reading something, or picking up on an old hobby? Or even thinking of a new one? Too pushy.

Maybe just an ayah that would make you feel better:

الَّذِينَ آمَنُواْ وَتَطْمَئِنُّ قُلُوبُهُم بِذِكْرِ اللّهِ أَلاَ بِذِكْرِ اللّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ}

“Those who believe, and whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of Allah: for without doubt in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest.”

grey said...

Woow. Seriously u have no idea how happy i am to see ur comment.

Feen ayyam zaman.

Hope ur doing well, gjoe. And thanks alot for your support

girltalksloud said...

The tiny daily things that mean the world 2 u would slip through ur fingers without even knowing it!!
I know it first-hand :i
Life z absurd..
Sweet post Wael