Tuesday, October 31, 2006

trying to be perfect

A few days ago I was feeling a strange urge to be on my best religious behaviour. On my way home, while listening to a religious lesson by Omar Abdelkafi, I decided to visit an orphanage for the first time in my life. I had just taken some money from the bank so I was willing to make a small donation after I play with the kids. When I finally got there, the receptionist looked surprised to see me. I asked him if I could take a look at the kids and he asked if I was adopting any of them and after I told him that I didn't he told me that I would have to wait five minutes or so before he could tell me if I could see them or not. It turned out that I couldn't see them since Friday is the only day reserved for visits which made me give them my donation and go get in the car. I usually pull the seat belt as soon as I get in the car but I don't know why I didn't pull the belt this time. I got to the Hosary Square at the end of the road and I was stopped by a police man asking me for my driver's license. I quietly handed him my driver's license…

Police Man: "Why don't you have the seat belt on?"

Me: "I'm sorry, I'll put them on right now, I just came out of the parking slot…I was at the orphanage over there"

Police Man: "What were you doing at the orphanage?"

I gave him the "it's none of your business" look

Police Man: "Do you work there?"

Me: "No"

Police Man: "Then what were you doing?"

Me: "I was visiting the kids and stuff"

Police Man: "Visiting them, eh? Hmmm…that changes everything. Here's your license back"

Me: "thank you"

As soon as I left I felt like I've been cheated off of the good deed I just did. Did I tell him that I was in the orphanage so that he would think I was a good person and leave me or did I want him to know that I was parking my car real close and had no time to wear the seat belt??

I've heard before that God doesn't like to share any of the good deeds you do with anyone which means that when doing a good deed do it for God's sake only, not for social purposes for example.

I was mainly pissed because when I finally decide to do some charity work just for God's sake the police man comes and ruins it for me. I was actually ready to go back and ask him to take my driver's license so that I would take full credit for the good deeds I have just done!! It does seem ridiculous, even to me now while typing this. Thank God I changed my mind after seeing him being bribed by a couple of guys who have also broken the traffic laws in some way.